today evening, I felt disheartened/discouraged/unmotivated whatever. I shall not reveal any private things here. only a little about this and that. first and foremost, i would like to highlight, the good usage of face-to-face talk/ straight forward. By using this method of talking to someone who you don't really like in one or another way, it is a good way to communicate between both parties. It will both be beneficial and the involved ones can learn from each other mistakes. 
Alright, I shall stop.


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Actually, I have loads of things in my mind to write down here. But since, I am not suppose to be here, I shall minimize everything.
I am coping with my subjects. I am trying my best with everything that I do. I am having nausea frequently. I am sick and tired with cowards/ jealous, I don't know. I feel like crying, but i didnt.
I feel like calling for a meeting where debates/shoutings are allowed,  & oh I just wish. I feel like confronting him, but it's his life anyhow i shouldnt care. I need to stop caring about losers. i am embarrassed.

man, im trying so hard aint I? Keeping my hopes us high. hah. bullshit.